Hello. This is my website.

I'm making this purely out of boredom and to spend my time.

Which I have a lot of. I'm 15. It's also a place to rant i guess.

Anyways with the formalities out of the way, my name is Blanker. Just call me Blanker. I'll probably just talk about random shit here. Liminal places, horror, my feelings about things, stuff going on, the whole scpeil. Also I type incredibly fast so sometimes I mess up words, add letters in the wrong place or just add letters that aren't in a word. I also suck at spelling, punctuation, capitalization, etc etc. Yeah. Average teen shit. I also swear if you couldn't tell. Click off if you don't like that. Okay cool. Some of my intrests are:



I like a lot of shit. And theres always more. And theres some I forgot. I'll add more as I go.


So typing this after a couple of days of occasonally adding things to that list I think I decided how I want the website to work. I'm gonna make seperate parts of the page dedicated to things i like to talk about. As an example, I like to talk about Still Wakes The Deep so I'll go down a few scrolls and make a section for that. I'll probably figure out a way to link the subject to it's section from the list but that might not be possible. I'm still figuring this whole html thing out as i go so that might explain the bland, black and white, schoolwork looking website but eventually i can make it prettier. It'll just take some time. Anyways I'm gonna go try to figure out how to link parts of a page to words on that same page. Good luck future me.



Some things about me.

Hi, I've been talking a lot about what I like but not very much about me personally so here it is. If I had to describe myself in one word it would probably be Odd. That's it, Odd. The reason I say odd is because I can switch really fast and really randomly the way i act. I could be a very kind and empathetic person but in the next moment i could be the angriest most insulting person ever. And i don't like to say this because it makes me feel like one of those corny people that are like "I have multiple personalites!!! My dark side and my light side!!!" Thats not the way i am even if i literally explained that exact sentence like three seconds ago, I'm just a really odd person. I think it's because I'm a teen but I dont really know.


But enough about that, what about littler things? Well if you couldn't tell before... I like many things. And I obsess over a lot of them. Basically I find something I like, I go into really really deep detail of it, then after a while I forget about it. Things like Still Wakes The Deep however I could drone on and on for HOURS and never run out of things to say. However kinda contradictory I am very uncreative. And I'm almost certain that I have adhd but not diagnosed so I wont say I am. But if not adhd SOMETHING is wrong mentally because even as I write this I am struggling to, well, write this. I'm watching a video on Still Wakes The Deep and I keep getting distracted. Which I'm just gonna call Still Wakes The Deep SWTD. Its kinda time consuming to write that over and over. But back to what I was saying about being uncreative it's kinda hard to make this. I also have very bad memory issues so I'll forget small things or even right now after i get distracted and forget what i was writing about. And with my memory issues I can't think of anything else to say about myself. So I'm desperately trying to come up with things to say but I just can't. You'd have to meet me or ask someone else what they think about me to get an accurate description. So, I have an idea. I'm gonna make an email, put it here, and sign in on every device I can so I only get notifcations from people. That way I don't have to keep checking (which i will forget to) or get tricked by some company emailing me. So here, any questions about me? Email me 'em. cockroachesweb@gmail.com.

Garry's mod and why it's my favorite.

So what is Garry's mod and why is it my favorite game? Well let me get into what it is first. Garry's mod often reffered to as Gmod is a Half life 2 mod turned standalone. It's a sandbox game where you start off with a physics gun, toolgun, camera, and the base half life 2 weapons. Due to Garry's mod using Half life as a base you have all the assets, props (objects), weapons, npcs, etc. At the start without needing Half life. But if you do own it or any of its episodes then you get the campain as a selection of maps.

Maps

In Garry's mod maps are your stages, worlds, whatever you may call them. without any addons installed you have two free maps. Gm_Construct a smaller map with closed in buildings, a big grassy area, a parking garage, a dark and light room, a mirror room, and a mini lake. And Gm_Flatgrass a map with one big building in the middle and a grassy plain all around. Perfect for building, driving, or in general messing around while construct is better for npc fights, shootouts with your friends, or posing.

NPCs

NPCs (non-playable characters) are, as the name suggests, non playable characters. They are just dumb (somtimes intellegent) citizens, cops, zombies, etc. That you can spawn in to shoot, keep you company, or mess around with. Basically just bots. They aren't as smart as players, but can do what a player can do. (to a point) and just exist to have a person. It would suck to have to only shoot bottles or something in a shooter game.

Props

Props are your smaller items. Skulls, cups, coffee mugs, books, newspapers, crates, name it and gmod probably has it. If it doesn't someone has surely made a mod of it.

Players

You ^_^! Players are how Garry's mod and many other games refer to the person playing the game, hence the name. (woah that rhymed) Garry's mod offers its players many options for playing with others. There are a wide array of servers ranging from serious roleplays to dumb sandbox sessions. (dont expect garry's mod players to take roleplay seriously) And if you don't find anything you like on the main page for servers on Gmod itself search around for third party servers. Just be careful.

Mods

What every Gmod player has been waiting for. The wide wide world of MODDING!!! Now don't be afraid because its really easy. Steam has this thing called the workshop and any game with its compatibility has steam's own addon website. That being the aforementioned workshop. You find a mod you like? Click subscribe! If you are already in a game you'll need to restart it though. And you can't add mods to a server you don't own. (duh) There is a mod for almost anything. They might not be the best but if you can think it you can find it.

Why do I like it though?

Well, I love it for many reasons. It was my first ever steam game (and pc game), I've played it my whole life, the modding is awesome, the source engine is awesome, yada yada. I could go on forever. But I'll just get to the point right here. It was my first pc game. I've played my fair share before and after of console games, pc games, etc etc. But since this was my first PC game I just love it. I don't really have a reason and if you we're to ask I would either say "Because its a sandbox" or just "mods". So I guess I dont have a reason. But one more thing before I move onto something else if that interested you I'll like it here. Have fun!

My newest obsession as of 8/18/25 Aneurism IV

What is Anuerism IV? Anuerism IV or as I'm gonna call it Anuerism is a society rp game. You've got the cops (a.k.a cortex), the in-between (citizens), and the rebellion (scum). Aneurism IV takes place in the dystopian communist-esk city of Aneurism IV. The Consul controls the city like big brother and directs the cortex to do what they do. When you first spawn in for the first time in your first server you spawn in a skeleton and have to choose your "fate" which at the moment you can only afford the Proles.

Mechanics/events

Non-specific/general mechanics

The many currencies and mechanics of the game.
Rot
Rot is a big factor of which faction is in control. Rot is the cancer growths of the city and the things liquidators clean. If a body is left on the ground or a cancer pod for too long than Rot growths can spawn in the general vicinity of those items. The Scum worship the rot and their goal is to make it to 100%. If this happens a server reset goes into order purging anyone and everyone of all their amnecytes and credits along with their fate. The cortex's goal is to stop this.
Credits and Amnecytes
Credits are your temporary currency. You can buy things from the deathmarket, from others, shops, properties, pretty much its the money of Aneurism IV but I feel like anyone could see that. Amnecytes howver are your permanent currency, its how you afford fates and if you go into debt than you become a slave and have to work back up to zero. You gain both from hard labor, but can gain credits from as I said before, buying or selling.
Limitation
If you kill without reason, break something, get found with contraband, or push a cop you are marked with a limit order. You are now able to be killed by the Cortex and since being Cortex is a very hard job are now a target. If you are Scum you will be marked constantly as you are against the Cortex. As a Cortex you can also be marked, you are not safe from the Consul's iron grip.
Rations and everything else.
The ration cycle is and will be your main source of food. If the prole do their goddamn job and fill the ration factory up with fish eventually a ration cycle will be put in order making it so you can get free food. Same goes with credits, after a while a "pay cycle" will go into order and if you go to a city terminal you can get your pay for how hard you worked. NOTE: Unlike the ration cycle the pay cycle DOES stack and if you don't get your pay until the next pay cycle you will have more money waiting for you but it is best to get it when it comes out and work hard. The pay cycles are very long in between. Lockers are your friend. They hold your items even after death, wanna go kill a Cortex for fun but got a lot of shit on you? Throw it in a locker! Want to become a different fate but are unsure if you can or not? Throw your shit in a locker! They also hold your accsessories. Go ahead get snazzy!

Events

In aneurism there can be events that occasionally happen.
Wartime
The Wartime event is where Anuerism IV goes to war with a neighboring city causing bombs to drop onto the city at random. These are one shot kills at the cost of having a very litte range. But if you're close enough it can still be very detrimenting. During this time Proles, and anyone else who can help are told to make bombs to fight back. Sure you don't have to or are afraid of getting hurt at the many groups of people that clump bomb workstations but it is the best way to get amnecytes and doctors usually sit around for anyone who needs help. The Scum can also steal a warhead during this time to make Rot bombs which take out neurostabilizers.
Darkness
The Darkness is when the Scum are able to throw enough bodies into one of the sacrifice holes causing Aneurism IV to go into a state of anarchy. Its kill or be killed in this state and trust me, no one wants to be killed.
Limitation order
The Limitation order is when enough Rot is able to grow calling for a sort of purge. Cortex are now able to kill anyone they want without reprimand and are able to go into the Scum base.

The in-between

Proles

The Proles are the main muscle of the city they work in any and all factories around the city. Wanna work in the greenhouse and feed plants Rot slop? go ahead! Wanna mine and smelt iron into galvanized steel? get yourself a free pipe today! Do you wanna clean and fold laundry? Uh... sure! Nothing special about these guys but without them the city would starve.

Doctor!!

Is what you'll be hearing every ten seconds of every day for the rest of your time as a corpsman. The corpsmen are the underpaid overworked doctors of Aneurism IV. Share your blood to others to heal them, make medicine for this fucked up city, and do your best to satisfy as many customers as possible, after all, Do No Harm!! Or don't. You can also for an extra 4 Amnecytes, become a bad doctor! Heal the scum in their efforts to let the rot take over, make a serum for the poor souls that went into debt to become the puke coffins, and remember Do Harm!!

Dealer

You are the shadiest most useful person in the city. Aside from your brother, the bankers. Buy food, ammo, weapons, or practically anything from the deathmarket and sell it back for outragous prices! or be hepful and sell them cheap to stop the starvation! Thats pretty much it. Also keep and eye on your shoulders at all times.

Have you seen a Banker??

Something you will most definitely hear at least... Hmm.. A hundred times. (I have not played nor plan on playing banker take my words with a grain of salt) As a banker you are the only thing keeping money in peoples pockets. People can deposit or withdrawl their money from you and you get to tax them! Add a ridiculous tax and get killed for it or add a understandable tax and get protected for it! Or you can do none of that and just become a fancier dealer! Your choice, just don't get raided by the cops for having a thousand contraband accusations!

Liquidators

I keep these streets clean ya hear! The cleaners of this city, keeping it from falling into anarchy's tight grip and making sure there are no specks left! You are equipped with a flamethrower, a wrench, and two small repair kits. Esentially you are the Handymen of the city. You see a rot growth? Burn that motherfucker! See a corpse? Throw it into any incinerator! (mostly found in imfimaries) See a broken camera, neurostabilizer, vending machine, cortex terminal, or city terminal? fix it! Thats your job! Or during wartime get deputized! When you get drafted you turn into a cortex sla- .. Uh I sanitor! Yeah... This one is my personal favorite because of the cleaning aspect, the sense of importance, and because you can become a cortex for free.